On my toes

January 21, 2010

Or rather, on my back. But coming in and playing with me at night is just new and different. I completely didn’t expect to get told to strip and lay down on the couch. He put the hood on my straight away, had the bondage in place really quickly. Then left me. Then he’d [...]

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On Belonging to a Sick Fuck

January 20, 2010

He likes being mean. He took away my pillow, the blankets. No books, no vibrator, definitely no Blackberry. He left me there for what felt like forever. I felt like I was going crazy. I didn’t have time for this shit. I had lots of other stuff that I needed to do. I didn’t [...]

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Watershed Moment

January 16, 2010

Do watershed moments keep happening your entire life? Surely there comes a point where there are no more “critical moments” and the path just opens up wide before you and it’s easy to follow along. Right?
M. said I crossed the line yesterday. I crawled into his cage when I really really really really didn’t [...]

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You’re Not Supposed To Like It

January 15, 2010

Those are words I really don’t like. No, really. Fuck that shit.
I am ready to do stuff that I do like, now, please and thank you.
I am also not quite sure what I would like, though. He tells me that’s because I’ll like what he’ll like, and nothing else.
I think we have a problem.
I tried [...]

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Hot and cold

January 12, 2010

Rope. I like rope. I like rope for the sake of rope. Rope combined with being told to hold still for a hard caning? Yikes. That was really hard. I got a charlie horse in my stomach somewhere after about three and he still wouldn’t let me move and it was just excruciating. Ow. [...]

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Mind blowing

January 9, 2010

Waking up with coffee in the cage is just weird. M. told me that I should feel very spoiled. A nice cup of really good coffee, with cream exactly how I like it. Plenty of blankets because our house is fucking freezing. And before he headed out to do the chores? He gave me [...]

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Anticipation

January 8, 2010

It’s snowing. I sort of love snow days, because it’s a day of guilt-free playing, after all the morning chores are done.
I’m off to take a bubble bath, to shave, to make myself pretty.
I have the best Master in the universe.
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Today’s lessons: if he doesn’t tell you what to put on, it means don’t [...]

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