I’m not ignoring the comments to yesterday’s entry. I’m thinking about them. But my answers are sort of snippy and eye-rolly, which is rude, but I’m feeling flippant.
I mean, yesterday’s scene is still fresh in my head. It was so hot. I was hot. Happy. Sybian rides haven’t been working for me, lately. It’s felt like getting raped the whole time and I never came or even felt close. But yesterday, he had me on the edge of coming and I couldn’t control a single sensation. Wiggling made it worse/better and he did a level of pain that I thought I couldn’t stand but it all worked and made me hotter.
He had me holding his dick while he did things to me. What a feedback loop. He gets harder when he hits me. The evidence of how hot he was finding playing with me was right there in my hands. It made me feel attractive, wanted, hot. I like feeling that way, thanks.
I’m being manipulated and this is all very bad for me. It’s not fun or healthy. Right.
See? Eye-rolly.
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It is very healthy and you are not being manipulated at all if you know he is enjoying you and you are enjoying what he is doing to you. What is so bad about that, tell me !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
“The evidence of how hot he was finding playing with me was right there in my hands. It made me feel attractive, wanted, hot.”
He can see your clues and reactions but your haven’t always been able to determine his …this is absolutely a milestone !
It is that very feedback loop that keeps me going. He hurts me and it turns me on. He is turned on by hurting me and/or the reaction my body gives, his body reacts… boom we are both where we want to be… over and over. I love it! It’s not manipulation, it’s symbiosis and that makes a great relationship.